just thinking aloud (pretending to be in someone else's shoes hehehe peace jeffie!!!)
8/27/08 0 °C
sa iniwan: life is a bummer (whoever said it is a bed of roses must be either drugged or intoxicated). imagine going through all the obstacles (not to mention pain) you've gone through before you got to where you are now (sige imagine lang, wag sana dibdibin).was it all worth it? of course, you'll say yes, na kesyo masaya ka nung inlab ka pa, at every monument spent with the schmuck you now call your ex, was one hell of a rollercoaster ride (more like you we're taken for a ride).PLASTIC!!! worth it ka dyan.kantutin sa pwet, i mean, come to think of it pala, worth ba talaga?o keri lang na di nangyari?siyempre there's no way to find out, pero pag inisip mo, la din namang changes sa buhay mo kung di sha dumating (except for the stolen moments, kiligs on the side, casual sex na noon e "makelove" ang tawag mo). sha ba ang naging cause ng: promotion, instant wealth, magnitude of friends, increased knowledge o simply a cause célèbre?oo nga't naging laman din sha (ng pahayagan???) ng maiinit mong panaginip lalo pa nung di mo pa sha natatry, pero may naging difference ba nung natry mo? ang masaklap pa dito sa mga ganitong scenario ay kung ano ang cause at kung pano kayo nagkahiwalay. minsan walang kawenta-wenta, minsan naman ubod ng sakit pero u have to set each other free ang chika. pero para sakin, mas masahol ang "sugar coated departure". kalevel nito ang "it's not you, it's me" o kung naaalala niyo pa mga kantang i don't have the heart at i love you goodbye, yun na un! kung hinde, let me refresh your memory.
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That Ill always stay with you
But baby thats not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby thats something I cant do
Oh I could say that Ill be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know Id only hurt you
I know Id only make you cry
Im not the one youre needing
I love you, goodbye
sa umiwan: e 'nyeta, i love you pala e, san nanggaling yung goodbye?!?!? pwede namang ikaw ang magbigay ng love that i need, pwede mo namang sabihin na lagi kang nandyan for me ah. i dont even need forever. and what the fuck do you know about my needs? all i need is you nga e 'naknam!(pero syempre di mo un sasabihin kasi iisipin niya clingy ka,saka ang sappy nung linyang un ha).
o diba anlabo ng mga ganitong dyowa. ang dami pang sinabi e suma tutal lang naman iiwan ka. i mean what's the use of giving you a list of all your good traits (e im sure alam mo na un), para ano pa? para panghinayangan mo at pagnilay-nilayan ang what could have beens? yung mga "you're the best person i've ever met in my life" brouhahaha. best na pala ko e what more do u need? was my best not good enough for your standards?ano pala, perfect?walang ganun.kaya alam na agad na pambobola yun.tapos makikita kita may kasabay maglakad na, for my standards e di man lang papasang PA ko. bitter, i know but you could have made it short and simple rather than using my infallible qualities to make me feel better about us not being together (being the prick that you are) <-------don't you think i know that? but i made a choice to stick with you come hell or high water. ang sabihin mo ayaw mo lang talaga, at ginawa mo lang akong past time. the truth hurts i know pero the lies were devastating. lying doesnt make things easier to bear. emphasizing how great i am wont stroke my ego. it will just appease your guilty conscience hoping you'd make me feel relieved that it wasn't my fault we broke up. but you know what? it tore me apart. all those lies did. i'd like to believe you love me, but all you did was make me look stupid. i could have overlooked those flaws, i could have settled for mediocre (actually i did) because i love you, but as you said i don't deserve you. perhaps you're right.