Jul 2008

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? (are you drugs???)
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? (sira di ko kamay yan!)
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call (missed call yun, namiss mo so sa iba na-route)
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all (saklay ang sagot dyan!)

I'll never know what the future brings ( si madam auring alam)
But I know you're here with me now (guniguni mo lang ako iho)
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with (hoping...)

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand (ano ang IQ mo?)
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? (e feelingera ka nga kasi)
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms? (iposas moko...hmmmm why not)

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed? (waaah iyakin! iyakin!)
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head? (hmmm heraing voices ha, malala na yan)
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life? (ang dami mong tanong ha!)
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife? (bangungot yan!!!)

I don’t know why you’re so far away (di mo ba naisip na nagtatago ako?)
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with (ayan ka na naman ha!)
And I wish that you could be the one I die with (ay wiz ko pa gusto mategi)
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with (may bahay ako tenchu!)
I hope I love you all my life (kaw bahala)

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand (poor comprehension)
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am (magpacheck ka na at walng nagsasalitang puso)
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms? (gawin ba akong kapitan??)

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away (death eater! Expecto Patronum!!!!)
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today (lampa ka talaga)
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight (care ko)
You know my heart is by your side (katakot)

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand (sige paulit-ulit ka na!!!)
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

sa napipintong birthday bash mo, ito ang regalo ko!

sha ang magluluto kasi galing pa kong shift! sha rin ang unang "babati" sa yo wahaha!

i was having a ball with my BFF (balahura friends forever) during my off. he picked me up at home (yes pick up girl nako ngayon) around 9 so i could watch his tune up game with his officemates. turned out there was no decent looking guys there.bummer!!! after the game, we ate lunch at a nearby canteen with 2 other teammates; giorgio and caloi. observing them strengthen my decision not to get hitched. giorgio, who IS married, was telling us how his supposed date with a new officemate turned pfffft kasi engot daw ung girl. "mali-mali" as he put it. he was even bragging how his wedding ring would manage to be left at his "hiding place" everytime he goes out (akalain mo, naiisip ng wedding ring na magpaiwan!). when he leaves he would ask his wife if she has seen the ring. tapos hihirit ng "ay nako malalate nako!" sabay alis, pero wag ka, nasa pocket lang naman pala niya. kaya paguwe, suot na si wedding ring. minsan pa daw nung nagaway sila, hinagis niya ung sing2 kasi nag-iinarte sha. nauwi ito sa hiwalayan. nung makipagbalikan sha, hiningi niya ulit ang singsing tutal naman daw sha nagbayad nun. i cant imagine how guys still living with their wives can pull a stunt like that i.e dating unsuspicious girls, flirting etc. he even has a son who uses his basketball shoes (the one he brought) as his storage for his matchbox collections. he took out around 4 cars (in one shoe) and 3 on the other. hankyut! looking at those cars, my mind wanders off to dreamland.

i'm crazy about kids and would like to have one (or a few) someday. a couple of years ago, while having drinks with my girls, we talked about getting sperm donors(SD) via natural reproduction (ano ko rich, di ko afford ang artificial insemination no). we set it to happen in 2 years time (2008). we listed names for possible SD. i could only name a few since i've lost in touch with my guy friends (the rest are gays hahaha). BAB was crossed out since he has a kid already and my first rule is my spawn should be a first for me and the SD. then i thought of POGI.yes the meek and humble pogi in my previous entry. he's fair (maganda kutis--tsek!), good in math (isang malaking tsek!!), tall (5'9.5" tsek!), thing is there nothing animalistic about him that can make me feign "temporary insanity". junior, the object of my unexplained hormonal affection (during that time), has fathered numerous children, too many he cant remember. besides, i wanted my kid to be somewhat fair kasi morena na ko, tapos dadagdagan ko pa ng kulay kape, kawawa naman ang bebi ko nun! not to mention the nose! ok lang kung kasing pango ko pero wag na lalapad pa sa ilong ko kasi ala na talagang future gumanda ang "tagapagmana" ng sangkatutak kong kalat. then my pardner sam (not her real name), suggested i try dax (oo si BFF). kasi feeling daw niya magaling. sabi ko ayoko ng magaling. gusto ko hindi baog!makes sense di ba. im not saying na baog sha ( i wouldnt know). so para malaman ko, tinext ko sha and told him the whole story. as usual, nagtawanan kami. lingid sa aking kaalaman, meron din shang kondisyon
na magpapractice kami at least twice a year! syempre jowk lang naman.kasi magkakabugbugan kami if ever. since he agreed, we've forgotten about it. it resurfaced after a year (last year).we were talking about it while having dinner, na binabawi ko na ang pact namin about the baby. kasi sabi ko
me:naisip ko na pag nag tooot! tayo makikita mo na katawan ko
dax: so?? tapos?...
me: e pag nagkita tayo ulit macoconcious nako. parang feeling ko vinaviolate mo ang rights ko to privacy.
dax: meaning?...
me: pag tiningnan moko parang wala na ko damit. e ngayon pa lang nakadress ako kung makatitig ka e. gusto mo pako piktyuran, ano to, day off?
dax: (laughing)

fast forward to july 10, 2008
ayan nalito nako. ano na nga events. hmmm ayun nga after eating, naiwan na kaming 2 kasi magmamalling pa kami. we opted to go to robinson's. nung nandun na, nauwe kami sa inuman, which was the original plan. nagikot2 muna kami until he received a text from a female friend, na naloka kasi akala niya gf ako, humirit pa naman si gago na " o san tayo punta?", nahiya na ang gurlash kasi nga naman nabuko (as if d ko alam) na nagtext sha. kakahiya sa magandang gf hahaha. napilit din shang sumama kasi d ko naman sha pinandilatan. nung nagCR ang gel, sinabi ni dax na panay ang tanong kung gf ako, sabi naman daw niya OO. ang kumag pinagmukha pa kong tanga. sinong matinong gf ang di maiirita kung may umaaligid sa dyowa niya? ang lola mo pa naman panay ang chika at nakikipagtawanan pa kay gel. pero dedma na kasi dumating ang gay na friendiva ng gel. at may i promise pa na babalik daw sha kasi pangako ni dax e magchechek in kaming 3 sa eurotel at dun na lang magiinom kasi may free na crispy pata pag nag stay ng 3 hours (akalain mong alam niya pati mga ganun). nagiisip na kami ng plano kung san maghahasik ng kamandag nung naisip namin na itext si sam. napadpad kami sa Land of the giants: Pandacan. dun sa pinsan ni dax na isa. para ganahan nga naman maghanda si pinsan, ang press release niya e may kasama shang mga dancer! (naknam!!!). ang daming lafesh dun. kaso walang kanin hahaha. at may free filmshowing pa (wink wink!)
nagkaalaman tuloy kung ilang karats ang family jewels ni dax wahahaha. pero i wont expound dahil baka mablock ang site ko. til next time, mga chefars!

ayoko magpa plastic surgery pero type ko hair niya

ayan para solo ko panonood

kung may galante lang naman

para sarap sleep

that little black dress for my little BIG bod

i just love stuffed toys; keri na kahit wala ung bata

pang tamad!!!! hahaha

hingang malalim....
ay mali start pala muna sa seat ko no. sabi ng emcee "blah blah is awarded by the ____________to Miss Maharot Dimasupil who, during her lifetime, made creative contributions of outstanding ______ significance to the field of ______". ay chuckie parang pang Lifetime achievement ang chika nun! (Kebs!! tutal make believe lang naman to.)
close up to my fez, na manghang mangha at nangingilid ang tears. ill stand up, wearing a very expensive carolina herrera gown, and sashay towards the stage.

"Whoa, this is unexpected (chareeeng! sabay dukot ng listahan ng pasasalamatan). I wouldnt be here if not for mama and her sperm donor (a.k.a dad). ma, salamat sa pagna-nag mo dahil kung wala un, matagal ka ng may apo! sa daddy ko, wala lang (wala akong ipapagpasalamat, pampahaba ka lang ng speech). kay nanay (lola), kung wala kayo, la sana akong peklat sa kakaiwas sa palo nyo, kasehodang kumaskas sa sahig ang tuhod kong dumudugo pa sa gasgas sa pagkakadapa (na pinagsimulan ng away natin kaya nyo nga ako pinalo). op kors, tatay (lolo). tenk you po sa pagpapainom ng antibiotics. ngayon alam ko na na pag pina NGANGA dapat nganganga otherwise, buong gabi masakit ang panga dahil sa pagpisil nyo sa pisngi ko.sa pinakamamahal kong kapatid na si Utoy, kung wala ka, wala sanang silbi ang migranal, topamax, compazine at anaprox dahil di sana ako minamigraine, hinayupak ka.

syempre nandyan ang mga friendships...

kay romie, na walang sawa akong sinusupplyan ng mga bagay na sa pananaw niya ay kailangan ko tulad ng neutrogena, steve madden, novena to St. Jude and St. Rita (bakit kaya?) at kung anik2 pang gamit na nakikita niya sa bodega nila na sa palagay niya ay makakatulong sa aking personalidad.

kay janine, na nagsisilbing hope na makakahanap pa ko ng lalaking kasundo ko.na may ari ng farm, palaisdaan, at madami pang kemerlu.na laging handang makinig sa mga kinikimkim kong galit sa mundo.

kay bab, na nakakakita ng lahat ng magagandang traits ko (kung meron man) at walang sawang nagchicheer mag-isa sa team namin nung college kahit d kami nananalo.na pinagpapalit ang dates niya sa mga kulokadidang niya pag nalamang may date akong iba (bodyguard?). goons,dawg!!!

kay paula, na walang humpay sa paghihintay na balang araw magkakatuluyan kami ng manok niya. at d napapagod sa pagsasabing amishu kahit lagi naman kaming magkatabi.

kay pogi, na kahit d mo itext ng buong taon, naniniwala pa din na may mabuti akong kalooban.

kay dax, na kahit chickboy ay tinuturuan pa din akong pahalagahan ang katangian kong bihira na sa iba hehehe.na lagi akong kinakampihan sa walang sawa kong pagsusumbong.salamat, sa laging pagpapaalala sakin na lahat ng lalaki ay babaero.

kay jules, na walang sawang sermonan ako sa pagiging manang ko.na clueless sa kung sino ang pwede niyang ireto.sha din ang nagpapatindi ng pag-asa kong nagkakatuluyan din ang magbebespren!

kay honey na sa kabila ng kasungitan ay nakukuha akong ampunin sa panahon ng kahirapan. ngayon ako naniniwalang blessings come in small (cupsize?)packages.sa kanya lalo kong natututunang magtiis kahit gaano kahirap makisama sa taong mahalaga sayo.

kay ruthie na sa kabila ng kahinaan ng loob e kayang ipaglaban ang tinitibok ng kanyang pu.....so!dahil sayo nawawala ang takot ko sa mga bagay na di ko pa nararanasan.

kay athena na laging tumatanggap ng puna, pintas, sermon, batok at iba pang dagok ng buhay pero tuloy pa rin sa paniniwalang sasaya din sha sa pagiging thirdy.salamat sa mulit muling pagpapaalala sa king magpatawad.

kay luna na di napapagod maghanap ng lalaking magfufulfill ng wildest dreams niya.salamat, nacucurious akong iexplore ang mga bagay na bihira kong maisip.at kung d dahil sayo, mababa pa din siguro ang timbang ko

kay alyanna na walang sawang ayusan ako ng hair kasehodang wala naman akong lakad at tutunganga lang naman ako sa monitor; na di nagsasawang ipangutang ang mga kaibigan kahit sha ang mababaon hanggang sa susunod na sweldo.

kay jung-hwa na d magpapatalo. pinapanindigan ang lahat ng salita, kahit buking na.dahil sayo, natuto akong manindigan at ipaglaban ang paniniwala ko.

kay aira,na inaabot ng katumbas ng isang buong shift kung maligo.mainam din shang maglinis ng ref dahil hindi nagtatagal ang mga pagkain at inumin pag minomonitor niya un dahil sa kanya, lalong tumatatag ang patience ko.

kay lyndon na nagiging source ng entertainment kahit anong mood meron sha. i would run out of sound advice when he's sad and and would be blown away by his many revelations ;-) salamat for making me appreciate the small blessings.

at sa lahat ng naging bahagi ng mga pangarap ko, tuyo man o basa, salamat sa pagi-ignite ng creative juices ko hahaha.tenchubermats!

while waiting for eventual diabetes/renal failure (from coke and junk foods), my friend alyanna showed me callboi's funny and refreshing blog (http://callcentercon.travellerspoint.com/). alyanna (not HIS real name) is my internet addict cum parlorista wannabe roomie. he/she would shriek at the sight of my not so glamorous hair and before i know it, his hands are all over my head, attempting to give me a mohawk ala gwen stefani. as if! wala ng future ang hair ko, marz! where was i? ah ayun nga. i read a few entries in callboi's blog that made me decide to start blogging (start blogging ka jan e sandamakmak na ang accounts mo---blogspot, friendster, multiply, opera at kung anik anik pang d ko na maalala ang sites, basta go lang ng go!). it was a blessing indeed....5 bongang-bongang rainbows (walang pakialaman ng legend sa rating, sawa nako sa STARS!) for callboi!cheers!